激死人

又好開心lu. 我唔知你諗咩但係我好開心. 其實,我最希望你開心.

算啦，我真糸真糸唔会再理你啦。应该都唔会见lu。我开始计，not a good sign.

Wish you a merry christmas and a happy new year.

再见。

本来

其实本来，我是会提议/买来东西给你吃的。但是现在，这样的境况，还有这样的心情，我真的不能了。不想被拒绝，很怕被拒绝。我想，我真的不会再说想你了。抑郁满腔，很苦。

我真的想，我不会得到幸福了。真狠心。

Thank you, W, my silver lining

I just want to say, thanks W, you are my silver lining. You certainly are not aware of anything, especially my sadness and what has happened to me like 18 hours ago, but your presence just made me feel less upset. Thanks. Wish you very best in your coming challenges.

我又来了。哪些讨厌的庸人自扰，只要一点点，多一点点或少一点点，都能刺激我的神经，使我落下泪来。

我要站起来，我要自强不息。

烦恼是自找的。我听到，你的声音是轻快的，我是替你开心的。但同时，我呢？你心情好的时候，我在哪里？

兄说女孩都是比较mature的，我信。

我只有卑微的愿望，想和你相拥著，一起看电视，一起听音乐。

很想知道，有没有一刻，你也有相同的心愿?

其实我什么都不是

然后你有一点事，你来找我，我来安慰。你说我身份特别，其实我什么都不是。

看电影时

看完电影回来。看的时候很想哭，回来也哭了一点。不关剧情，什么时候稍微的碰一下，我的泪便会夺眶而出。做运动时，上洗手间时，工作时，一个人坐车时，天暗时，看电影时，我只是在强忍著泪水，一有机会便释放一下。没有人知的事。

迷你

在每个不同的场口，我也会想像，如果你在，你会有什么反应。我体会到，爱上一个人，不是认同不认同对方对事情的看法，哪不重要。重要的，是眼中已充满了对方，他作什么，我也是哪么欢喜。

竟然，我不知不觉地开始了这个坏习惯，竟在这时。

本來

本來,我是想在你特別的日子,和你好好慶祝,做一點特別的事或什麼的. 這麼多年,膽少的我終於可以稍為名正言順地和你拉近一點,很久以前我已在想到時應該怎樣才好呢. 蛋糕也差不多選好,禮物還在二選一,怕那份較為昂貴的禮物會給你壓力. 也在想去什麼地方會比較特別而又自然,想了很多很多,也想得很開心. 我是很有心思的人,也願意為深愛的人付出. 只是,有時候,我還是很粗心大意,讓一些事情發生了. 好蠢好蠢. 我只能祝你快樂, for whatever you did.

我又见到你啦。你话开心见到我，我最想糸揽住你身贴身坐糸沙发睇电视或者上网。

So I saw you. I want to hug you when i knew what has happened to you. That's what I suspect too. Sorry for not able to be with you when you need comfort.

我以後咩都唔信

"Your luckiest day of the month - and possibly of the year - will be when Jupiter (luck) combines forces with Uranus (surprise) on September 18. This is a day when even the most extreme wishes can come true!"

I only have a very humble wish that day and it blasted. Isn't it too ironic?

唔见你

又拒绝见你。哈哈好成功。明明是渴望见你的，明明是有点空闲的，思前想后，我就是不要见你lu，不必了。是有点愎仇的意味，还有的是，你每次哪句「我现在有点空闲，要找事做」的话，我很介意。哦，就等你真想见我时，才找我吧。我其实不是没事做的，但，我愿意为我喜欢的哪个人，放下手头的工作，跑出来与他见个面，聊个天。四十五分钟也好，四小时也好，晚上自己要偷偷的开夜车也好，也都甘之如饴，就像我之前大胆地为你skip dish一样。我是愿意的，如果你真的想看我的话。我在等。

又一次

又一次重重的一击，真的在试我的底线。之前一晚还在准备还在甜思思想像明天见面的情境，真的好蠢。为什么冒险是这么痛苦？我已经好小心好小心了。一巴一巴掌之后，是时候死心退下了。对不起的是我旁边的人，很对不起，我很自私。

或许两人只是挑花树下的邂逅，问一声：原来你也在这里？

就各走各路。

I cried badly. I miss you badly.

Episode two & three

Two

On thursday, i gave up the opportunity of seeing you. This never happened before. Because? Because i don't want to see you. Because? Because i want to keep away from you. Because i want to punish you. Because i sometimes need to believe. Because i give up. Because i'm scared.

I didn't see you eventually. It was a good opportunity but i let it go. I don't feel bad. I think, after all it might be a right thing to do.



Three

On Friday, i wanted to say "i really like to talk to you." just like what you said before. I like it. Don't know why. You are not particularly fun or humorous, and not articulate too. Are you good looking? Maybe but not very very. I don't know why.

And then today, i'm so excited to hear the email arrival sound on my computer (just like the beep sound i received in early april after my lesson. It was you who made my day.) just now. I read it with a smile. Feels good. Your messages/ emails are always light. I like it. But i started my old bad habbit to read between the lines too much. I started to think, how come his response is like this? Did i spoil him? What kind of impressin did i give him? Oh my god. I begin thinking too much. I don't like this but i can't control. I have to stop myself.

Episode one

It has been more than a week since we talked. The week was painful. I nearly lost myself and tried to do something stupid (not killing myself). And today you find me. Very special feeling. I was not overly delighted when i saw the message. I wasn't quite sure and believe in when i saw. Weird. It is like, "ok, so he sent me a message". Definitely not delighted, not sad, can't be described as a neutral feeling. I would say, it is a feeling with a distance. I was cold. To me, it wasn't a good sign at all. I felt like, "what else can this be?" or, maybe more precise, i didn't welcome such a message from you because it may bring me something that i don't want to hear. My instinct unconsciously protected me by keeping a distance from it and not to respond enthusiastically.

In short, my heart is dead.

I was telling myself earlier today that i was picking up myself, bit by bit and pieces by pieces. I was trying hard to recover while i was still bleeding. I try hard. And although it is painful, i made some progress.

So i didn't see you finally. I wish i could. But i can't. My brain asked me not too and it won over my heart this time (because the heart is dead as mentioned). I really want to see you. And to your point, I might have everything but I don't have you.

Yes, what else can it be? :(

The end

I don't expect we end like this. Especially after the lovely night we had last week. You said you have something to tell me. You think i don't know what you want to say? You think i don't know what we should do? I just can't do it. I'm always timid. The best way to do, is to cut everything. No more connections. I've done it once a few years ago. Very successful. I can do it twice i'm sure. I'm doing it now, today, from now on.

Thanks for the days and favourite nights we spent together. Every time was such a pleasant experience and i was over the moon. I need to forget you now but i won't forget the only one i love in my life so far. I wish i would meet someone i love soon. Bye for now. See you when i'm recovered.


18 August 2010

可不可與你放膽嬉戲 忘掉日與夜那些限期 不管身邊幾多無聊道理

可不可與你放膽嬉戲
忘掉日與夜那些限期
不管身邊幾多無聊道理

手拖手與你演齣好戲
遊行直到夜晚多淒美
爭取這一次　走幾千百里

沿途留心　掌心的知覺也著緊
我認　我認　我愛得太過份
人群漸近　想改寫你我命運
任天塌下亦前行　哪怕你說我天真

＊憑我徹底的勇氣　愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大　我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾　花光一切在乎你
沒有想過太多　我只需要你

路到盡頭也置之不理
寧願為愛著你不捨棄
爭取多一次　我身邊有你

沿途祈禱　始終一天我會望到
你是　你是　我的所有態度
無從預告　多曲折每段路
路中幾多的勸告　我怕我會聽不到

憑我徹底的勇氣　愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大　我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾　花光一切別嫌棄
若已想過太多　我只知愛你

A Mid Summer Night's Dream

You said level 1 or 2? I said level 7... Because I still don't believe it... :)

愛.... 請問怎麼走

和你並肩同行　一起走過各種天氣　再冷我都不覺得委屈
但生命轉了彎　慌亂間我回頭看　卻失去你的蹤跡

不想一睡不醒　免得錯過你的消息
忍著痛　忍不住了我就深呼吸
你說過的永遠　說好要帶我去
心刮著風　下著雨　想著你　往前進

愛　請問怎麼走　我一個人　翻過山　越過海
只為你對我好過　這份愛前所未有
愛　為什麼不走　我也不懂　誰勸我　誰愛我
誰可以讓我解脫　你的吻像個溫柔的符咒

只想等你回頭　緊握我的雙手　想著你就能執著　不管多麼寂寞
我的苦　我的淚　我的理所當然　只要你說你懂　就足夠

我翻過山　越過海
只為你對我好過　這份愛前所未有

愛　為什麼不走　是誰勸我　誰愛我
誰可以讓我解脫　你的吻像個溫柔的符咒

Just a gentle whisper, told me that you'd gone
Leaving only memories, where did we go wrong?
I couldn't find the words then, so let me say them now
I'm still in love with you

Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me, and I'll be there
I'll be there waiting you

I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you, I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
I'm in love with you

Living life without you is more than I can bear
Hold me close forever,I'll be there....I'll be there for you
I will always love you, I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
This I promise...

I will never leave you, I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad I will stand true
Hold me closer...Our love is forever, holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found, love has found a way

I'm in love, I'm in love
Yes, I'm in love, so in love
I'm in love with you

~The end~

22 July 2010

So tonight I saw you. You know what? I was very annoyed the whole week/ weeks. And of course today. I was so frustrated that I wanted shopping... spend money... watch, cosmetic and XXX. Even today I walked the whole afternoon because I was so restless that I couldn't sit down and do my work... So I saw you tonight. I must say, I wasn't THAT happy as before, not as that I should be. I want to cry more in fact. But I'm so glad to see you man. Originally I want to say no, because I want to keep myself away from you. I need to start my exit plan. But I wasn't able to do it. From the moment I got your text, I can feel that I'm more relaxed and happy. I'm glad I saw you.

Another missing night without you....

So when I'm crying hard, you shoot me an email. I didn't know, not until very late. A bitter smile. Why it is like this every single time?

I miss you man....

I cried. Again. Because I'm stupid. Because I have expectation. Because I overestimated myself.

Are you sick, honey?

I just cried. Because... I told a friend today I'm so frustrated. He asked why and I said because I feel empty inside. He asked why empty. I said, probably because I've done too much evil things recently. I'm so frustrated and fragile, man. I'd cry nonstop if anyone gives me a hug now.

得不了當然忘不了

我會化做螢火蟲 我會當你是彩虹

I think I was hurt. Not by you but by myself... what a poor silly girl...

Take me to far away way to your secret place.... 用最孤獨的心 換最溫柔的愛

龚柯允-KAREN KONG《In Love Again》
作词(Song Lyrics Written By) : Choi Sung Woo,Yoo Yoo Jin
作曲(Music Composed By) : 侧田(Justin Lo)

When you smile My life becomes a ray of light
Sing me a lullaby sleep at midnight
I'll be hypotizes when looked into your eyes
turn off the room light Let's spend the night

Take me to far away way to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain For which I'll repay someday
With a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in LOVE
In LOVE again ...

When the stars don't shine
and when the birds don't fly
and when the flowers cry
and when the rain runs dry
When the violet's red and when the rose turn blue
Baby I'm still in LOVE with you

ooh..oh..oo.. Take me to far away
way to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain For which I'll repay someday
With a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in LOVE
In LOVE again .. yeah yeah yeahh..

oh..oh...oh.. yeah.. yeah.. a..yeah .... oh.oh.. ohhh ...

Take me to far away
way to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain For which I'll repay someday
With a kiss and say
Can't believe that I'm in love
In love again .....
woo.. wooo.....

我看見你了. 原來你發生了那麼多的事情. 我在想, 如果那一刻, 可以來看看你, 照料你, 那多好. 又如果, 在那事情發生後到現在的一段時間裡, 我們能夠通通電, 互道一些近況, 那又多好.

你說有關家的一切一切, 我是那麼的羨慕. 你說了很多不同的 situation 後, 我馬上在想, 如果是我, 我又會怎樣呢? 我羨慕, 我期待是那家的一份子.

Nearly two weeks la. Time flies. Don't know what's going on. Why are you so coold to me?

"我唔甘心, 但我會認命."

-- 野田惠

It's been a week. What's going on? Am disappointed. I won't say I get hurt. Don't think the wound has ever recovered. It's been bleeding since the beginning. What happened? I told myself, things were over. Sadly.

It has been four full days that we didn't contact each other... don't know how's thing going to turn out... can't see anything out there...

We have some very very happy moments together. I like them. I'm sure you enjoyed them too. I'm waiting your hug, man.

You're Part Diva

You know that a girl's gotta work it to get her way in the world. And while you aren't about to throw a tantrum at every turn... You do amp up the drama when you know you need it. You mix charm, honesty, and kindness to get ahead.

Are You a Diva?

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

You Are Fall Flowers

Beautiful yet often forgotten.

What Part of Fall Are You?

Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

I've deleted your number. Deleted and re-added. Deleted and re-added. How silly I am. I start feeling like I'm a toy. A toy to play when you are bored. I don't get angry. Because I know you are not conscious about this. You are lucky that I have grown up. I don't know what to do but I sort of thinking to react passively. I think I've convinced myself not to do anything proactive. Afterall I need to protect myself. I am on my own.

復刻回憶

So we met more frequent now. I enjoyed our dates very much. And I know you enjoyed too. I don't know where we're going. Don't think you have any idea too.

I'm trying.

Yes I'm trying hard. Please support me. I need encouragement.

李嘉欣提到自己試過 5年單身，但不覺得有老公是一生成就，她說：「好多女人都希望有人可以 complete your life，但其實冇人可以，除咗你自己。有啲嘢你逼自己去追求，反而會離你越嚟越遠，譬如話感情、男人，我當時就覺得我係豁出去，我可以畀自己想要嘅生活，點解我要崩潰？」

And then today you told me you were not well. I feel like I want to run to you and take care of you. I wish I could. All the sorrow I had last night were gone. I laughed again at my silliness. You really make my day...

留住你心，於我心內

留住昨天，於我心內，
不肯丟棄，留到未來；
留待那天，當我寂寥，
可以回味這份愛。

情在昨天，湧進心內，
舒適的感覺，和你同來；
流入我心，將結解開，
使我嘗盡瘋狂愛，
如斯的優美。

我像人換骨，又脫胎，
坐白雲浮到天外；
我像人著火，又似是中魔，
發誓留住昨天的愛，
昨天的愛。

留住你心，於我心內，
當天的感覺，就會回來；
留待雨天，解我憂傷，
使我回味這份愛，
重回味這份愛。

Yes i cry...

So you asked me and I told you. Finally you know everything. Actually it isn't anything. I think I only told you 30%. Then we met more frequently. That is bad. Really bad. I start building up expectations. I have to manage myself as I told you. Am I angry on you? Maybe a bit but.. I grow up now.. Is it because I grow up or I love you too much? I couldn't figure out. I don't know how things will end.. I think I won't be like last time... not that worse I hope.

Ups and down ups and down...

You called me tonight. You will never know how happy I was when I saw your text message. I was actually trying on lipsticks. We chated and chated... although we didn't meet at the end... I was very pleased...

盲目

你知道嗎? 我想說, 是我的話我不會捨得讓你在那珍貴的早上的一小時睡不了. 我會偷偷地起來, 不打擾你睡. 我會傾力愛惜我深愛的人. 那個愛晚睡的大男孩.


熱淚盈眶, 也流了點出來...

I saw you. I don't know how you feel. I suppose you want to see me. You will never know how happy I was when I heard the beep sound of the text message at the moment when i finished the class tonight. At that moment I thought it was you directly, instinctly. A quarter second later, I realized that it wouldn't be you. Must be my girl friends whom I was supposed to meet tonight. But then when I saw the message and discovered that it was actually you... it was like flowers blossoming everywhere around me at that particular moment... really felt as if I misread the message... anyway.. we met.

I am not Susan. I don't want to be Susan. I must get rid of him in my mind. I need to be focused.

Yes I can do it.

未讓這世界查覺 暗暗地記載

真係有d頂唔順了. 頂得好辛苦. 今日我多口/手問人o野, 跟住就有人update 我了. 好似五雷轟頂, 天旋地轉, 又好似俾人掏空o甘. 好苦, 好苦.

好想知, 我的出路是什麼?

Nice song... i like it very much... 但係我唔捨得

原來情動正是這樣

不要驚動愛情

走到這一步, 就是因為, 我不想／不敢／不要驚動愛情.

是我錯了嗎?

原來你就住在我的身體

原來真係唔會無感覺的. 呢句o野係你話o既. 今天我整天都在忐忑中渡過. 從此飄於世間, 像夢遊.

有人話如果你不是娶/嫁一個你真心喜歡的人, 你段婚姻唔deserve blessing. o甘我都唔祝福你了.

都話你永遠o係我好失望既時候俾我希望, 又o係我滿懷希望的時候disappoint我.

D-Day 好快就到了. 尋晚我又跌入失落之中, 然後, 你又來了. 我諗, 你都好忐忑. 其實我都係, 雖然成件事唔關我事.

祝好(和我)!

你叫我唔好嬲左你... 我好想笑喎.... 真係勁, 連嬲都唔俾

倚星細語...... 畢竟那段如沐春風

何韻詩 – 木紋

曲︰張繼聰
詞︰黃偉文
唱︰何韻詩


如果 一手鋸開枯樹 木不會發現痛
不過 日日澆水的我 覺得被挖空
如果 必須結束關係 難扮成從未栽種
讓我 數著年輪 這些年輪 我的心會痛

畢竟那段如沐春風
早刻進百年長的信
在信中 圈圈緊扣 情感多深厚
前因 非因 錯種分開簡單 抹去往事極難
幾多溫馨 燭光晚餐
難以用 斧頭一劈 叫畫面飛散
伴侶沒了 記憶會為患
倚星細語 抱月夜談
歷歷在目 錄下年鑑
來年樹倒 身影孤 煙花散
年輪未可推翻 化不淡
情長未可推翻 化不淡

緣慳 但是人非草木 並不會太易慣
刻個 木造的心給我 痛苦未會減
情願 舊事連根一拔 忘滅如燃盡的炭
但我 數著年輪 幾圈年輪 已經濕了眼分手與又平復之間
少不過百年零一晚
就怕翻風的一晚 回首貪一眼
回憶急速擴散

就怕新婚的一晚 臨終貪一眼
徒添幾分慨嘆

昨夜星光燦爛

miss

英國: [/mɪs/]
1.miss

2.to fail to hit, catch, reach, etc. something 未擊中；未得到；未達到；錯過

3.to fail to hear, see or notice something 未見到；未聽到；未覺察

4.to fail to understand something 不理解；不懂

5.to fail to be or go somewhere 不在；不去；錯過

6.to fail to do something 不做；錯過

7.to not take the opportunity to do something 錯過機會

8.to be or arrive too late for something 遲到；趕不上；錯過

9.to feel sad because you can no longer see somebody or do something that you like 懷念；思念

10.to notice that somebody/something is not where they/it should be 發覺丟失；發覺…不在原處

11.to avoid something unpleasant 避開（不愉快的事）

12.used before the family name, or the first and family name, of a woman who is not married, in order to speak or write to her politely （用於未婚女子姓氏或姓名前，以示禮貌）小姐，女士

13.a title given to the winner of a beauty contest in a particular country, town, etc. （選美比賽優勝者的頭銜）小姐

14.used especially by men to address a young woman when they do not know her name （稱呼不知姓名的年輕女子）小姐

15.used as a form of address by children in some schools to a woman teacher, whether she is married or not （學生對女教師的稱呼）

16.a girl or young woman 少女；年輕女子

17.a failure to hit, catch or reach something 未擊中；未得到；未到達；錯過

從此飄於世間像夢遊

令我沮喪的是, 今天就在那個路上, 那個時間, 碰到了. 本來, 我是會很開心的. 今天, 我覺得好討厭. 愈不要碰上, 愈是碰上. 其實之前的一刻我是有想到的. 他跑過來, 但我其實是想跟他說, "你可唔可以走開, 我十級唔想見到你, 以後." 但我若無其事地吹了一輪水.

我真係以後都唔想見到你. Full stop.

報告

完全徹底地放棄了. 電話亦刪除了.

Move on, 重新上路.

祝好.

可是我 有時候 寧願選擇留戀不放手

紅豆
作曲:柳重言, 編曲:Alex San
監製:, 填詞:林夕


還沒好好的感受　雪花綻放的氣候
我們一起顫抖　會更明白　甚麼是溫柔
還沒跟你牽著手　走過荒蕪的沙丘
可能從此以後　學會珍惜　天長和地久

有時候　有時候　我會相信一切有盡頭
相聚離開　都有時候　沒有甚麼會永垂不朽
可是我　有時候　寧願選擇留戀不放手
等到風景都看透　也許你會陪我　看細水長流

還沒為你把紅豆　熬成纏綿的傷口
然後一起分享　會更明白　相思的哀愁
還沒好好的感受　醒著親吻的溫柔
可能在我左右　你才追求　孤獨的自由

如果有神

祂一定很討厭我.

我, 輸得一敗塗地. 像是把以前一直儲落的籌碼一舖清袋, 多年來的小心翼翼, 都枉費徒然.

我只是大胆了一次, take risk 一下, 好叫自己不後悔.

都衰埋. 但, 我要振作.


至少姿勢好.

你喝了好酒, 又與我何干?

Why can't you just say a few words to make me happy?

You said the year is dangerous... i've already done a lot of dangerous things and put myself on a very risky position. Don't you know?

成為我愛演的一個我

有好消息有壞消息. 所有消息 mixed 到我根本唔識得去分, 去笑, 去哭.

在昏亂的消息重重圍困下, 我的壞基因隱隱地暗示給我知道呢單野有幾唔fair, 佢有幾妄顧我的感受.

但係呢, 好基因話愛人不應該是這樣的. 發佢圍大大聲話佢個人好討厭又如何呢? 結果是不會改變的. 愛他便要令他快樂, or at least 不令他不快樂. 我也分不清這樣做會不會很自虐, 難道是"成為我愛演的一個我"?

發完sms之後的一刻, 胸口像滾水貼近沸點般的澎湃, 情感好像一下子要爆發出來一樣, 抑鬱滿腔.

女人有一樣神賜的東西叫直覺. 我知對其他人唔fair, 但係直覺叫我 buy time 先 settle 這一邊. 我知我壞, 某程度上, 其他人的fault 係俾一個excuse 我去放任我自己.

如果有神, 希望佢俾我力量, 去過這一關又一關的考驗.

I am a really nice girl, i know

"Dear man, wish you a happy and worry-free year of Tiger and Valentine's day, in whatever you do..."

這份情像翅膀打開

真的倦了....

Must Say Goodbye

我明知唔係同你睇, 我都話係同你睇. 你都話係.

我送過俾你, 因為 at that time i really mean it.

依家我要再 go through 一次.

振作呀... 頂住呀

This is sweet

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4.3 A+
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4 A
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一定要努力點了. 就算再多幾根白髮, 也在所不辭.

別了數十天, 是你又來電. 剛好一個月. 你又來了, 你來告訴我你那短短的一段報導. 其實, 我在山下的街頭是看到那份報的, 我故意不買. 因為我才稍微有點能力吃力地去收拾一下那一發不可收拾的心情, 正要轉身準備步進那熟悉的刪除程式中, 我又怎能像從前那樣輕易地前功盡廢掉? 我真的成長了. 活著為自己(他日不活著亦不為誰). 而你忽然又在我毫無準備的情況下, 殺我一個措手不及. 我只能迷信地相信你真的剋著我. 好可惡.

我極力地抑制著自己不要太露, 太露便不美了. 但我內心還是歡慰的. Dear man, You make my day. (我會有告訴你這一段的一天嗎?)

很想知道, 那個巧合的一月祭, 是有意還是無意的?

我想, 我不會和你去看那個fortune teller 了. 我記不起何以我當年心思這樣不細密地拉你去看相. 是我當時已成功地把你放進了delete 的程式中? 還是年紀輕天不怕地不怕? 應該不是. 可幸是我忘了當年的話. 我以為自己記性很好, 其實不然. 無論如何, 今天的我應該承受不住了. 我害怕聽見那些嚇人的話. 不要不要.

之後

之後, 他做了一點事. 在之後的數天, 他傳了我短訊, 問我有沒有用那份禮物. 然後一天, 他又再問一次.

都使我心花怒放. 在看路不要有祈望的大前提下, 我還是抱有一點祈望.

之後, 我也做了一些事. 買了一些很好吃的蛋糕, 在一天下午問他要不要吃世上最美味的蛋糕. 然後約好了, 在那天半夜帶給他品嚐, 和他分享. 然後再次去漫步, 這晚, 沒有酒.

要做的都做了. 還有什麼膽怯的人應該去做的?

在等待回音中...

2010年的第一場哭

在昨天晚上,今天零晨哭了.哭得可憐.

希望2010年哭得少些,快樂多些.